im not kidding! not even five minutes ago he asked me to marry him!!!! This guy is the brother to one of my mom's best friends. He's known me ever since i was born...and he just proposed to me!!

what the heck man?! Am i more attractive than i think myself to be cause i honestly dont know what appeals to people so much?! But he's always telling me how much he loves me and how beautiful i am and how he wants to take care of me and make sure i have a good life.

He says that he wants me to marry at the very least in name only so that when he dies he can leave me a few thousand dollars. Thats good and all but i have no memory of this person at all in my life. I know i know him but i dont remember him and i dont want to be married to someone i dont even know. That'd be extreamly uncomfortable and scary to me. cause like what if he would want to sleep with me or something? Im barely comfortable giving him hugs!

And i dont want to marry him, so i just told him i'd talk to my mom about it and that i would think about it. But even if its only till he dies (which cause he's sick will only be a couple of years) i told him i would never want to marry someone for money alone. He just spent the better part of a half hour trying to convince me to marry him, again i told him im gonna think about it and talk to my mom. I only just got away from him now.

but thats so weird! im wondering why and how i appeal so much to people when i dont think im attractive at all or that theres anything i can offer people.

im just seriously werided out right now. i cant believe this guy just proposed to me. *shakes head*