well i heard alot about the book from people on diffrent message boards and alot of people say that the new movie is a lot closer to the book so i got curious and decided to buy it considering i almost never get to go to the library.

i bought the 40th anniversy hardcover edition with jhonny depp's wonka on the cover. it'll be shipped out september 8th. i can hardly wait!
i really hope its going to be good.

i was going thorugh my computer looking for the typed up version of my story when i stumbled upon an old journal entry. i was rereading it and all those feelings that had been temporaily locked away.

after reading it i just feel so depressed right now. those feelings never truely went away and would resurface often but now after rereading that i just feel so down and out right now.

like i want to cry but i cant because no one would care if i did.

i dont know if i told anyone this yet but there was  friend on my aim that had agreed to do a couple songs with the story for me. i was so excited but sadly the songs were a big let down. dont get me wrong the lyrics and music were good but they werent what i had invisoned. the lyrics werent the same ones id written. i had expected him to add or take way some of my lyrics to make better songs but he completely changed them.

i had okayed the lyrics because they sounded good and i figured i could put them somewhere in the story. but when all was said and done the lyrics were good and the song beat was good but his voice was so not good.

it was a nice geture for him to do that though. but, and i dont mean to be mean but he cant sing at all. he play instruments very well but he just can not sing and i was dissapointed that he had changed my lyrics so much that the songs werent even my own anymore. im wishing now though that i had insisted he kept my lyrics the way i wanted but even so it wouldnt have mattered now because his voice was just awful. and i was so excited about someone singing my songs to that hearing his voice for the first time was such a dissapointment for me.

i dunno maybe someother time i'll be able to find someone who can both sing and will be more ture to my lyrics. i certainly hope so.

these are just character bios that i made up today while at work for the characters in my story. The top two are the main characters the rest are other characters that play some part in the story. i dont know if i'll be making more or not. it all depends on where the story goes.

Laila Dale:
Social Status: Popular
age: 17
race: Caucasion
height: 5' 7"
hair: red, shoulder blade length, wavy
eyes: ice blue
family: mom, dad, younger brother and sister
background: Laila is a popular, kind, and caring student with lots of friends from all diffrent types of social status. She's happy and outgoing and loves meeting new people and making friends. She was in a relashionship with James but after an incident she broke up with him and shortly after began dating Jasper whom unlike james she actually had feelings for.

Jasper Daniels:
Social Status: emo geek, loner
age: 15
race: caucasion
height: 5' 0"
hair: kinda longish black hair with bangs that cover his eyes
eyes: black
family: mom, dad
background: shy, serious, and quiet. Jasper has always kept to himself and never had many friends. He loves to play the guitar and skateboard. He met Laila his firstday when transfering to a new school. Because Jasper has always been smarter than children his age his parents had him bumped up two grades and is now a junior like laila. shortly after saving laila from her boyfriend the two begin to go out. Jasper is also the child and heir to a billion dollar company started by his grandparents and passed down through the family line. And though he'd rather do anything else he is next in line to inheirt the family business.

Jolana Lauson:
Social Status: Popular
age: 17
race: African American
Height: 5' 2"
Hair: Curly, Shoulder length, black hair
eyes: brown
family: mom, dad
background: Jolana is an only child and Laila's first and best friend. The two have known each other since preschool and have always been insperable. Jolana is a 3rd degree black belt in karate and after school works at one of the stores in the local mall. When the she has time she teaches jasper some beginners karate. she also aids jasper in protecting laila and is always with her when he cant be.

James Anderson
Social Sataus: Jock
Age: 18
Race: cacuasion
height: 6'2"
hair: shoulder length shaggy blonde hair
eyes: green
family: dad
background: James is a senior and a star football player for his school. He'd been dating laila for a year before that broke up. he is now obsessed with getting revenge and getting her back. his whole exstience seems to revolve around possing her and forcing her to love him at all costs.

These are rough draft character discriptions as im not entirely happy with how they turned out but i just thought i'd go ahead and get the outlines done now. tell me what you think so far.

my dads current girlfriend is quite litterally insane. She refuses to take her medication and has already stabbed my dad once. and today he woke up to her spraying both him and his dog with liter fluid.
she was going to set them on fire. Also more than once she has been arrested for attempted murder.

i told my dad that i didnt like her. that i was scared that one day she would kill him. he says that he loves her and that just because you love someone that doesnt stop them from being crazy.

imo, its okay if you want to love her but if she's putting your life at risk and is refusing to try and help herself function in socitey without harming herself or others than love or not you shouldnt stay with her.

and what about us? what about his family that has to constantly worry what stunt she's going to pull next? what if the next time he doesnt wake up early enough to save himself?

im totally freaking out here!